I recently started a new line of paintings. A series called “It is well with my soul.” They are paintings all created with ground coffee and acrylic paint.. along with a few other bells and whistles. Read on to learn the story behind it all!
If you read my blog, “Solitude…and why it’s so good for the Artist Soul”, you would know that I just embarked on a weekend of solitude. It was magical, refreshing and so needed in this busy, single mom’s life.
The main thing that stuck out in my mind over this past weekend, was all of the obstacles that I had overcome in the prior year. Going through pregnancy alone, losing a husband, and trying to tackle single parenthood with my first newborn..all while successfully running a business. Needless to say, I felt like my life was unraveling at every seam possible. I was fighting so hard, for perfection… trying hard to hide the chaos and making sure social media saw a “picture perfect” life that I was desperately trying to orchestrate.
I have been running at full speed this past year, losing sleep over custody battles, juggling first time motherhood, and trying desperately to take my business to the next level. I have honestly lost touch with so, so many amazing friends because I was so selfishly involved in my long lost journey for perfection.
In my weekend of solitude it hit me. WHAT THE HECK WAS I TRYING TO PROVE?! And TO WHOM?
Perfection wasn’t obtainable. Is it ever??… Why am I spending all of my time and energy chasing an adjective, verb and noun that will forever be out of my reach?! I was done. I’m tired. I’m exhausted. And you know what ? I’m NOT PERFECT. And you know what else? ….
I am me. My life is chaotic, and IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. My silly crazy, abstract, never perfect…artist soul.
God did not create us to be perfect. He would never create such an unattainable goal like that for us to accomplish. “He only gives us what we can handle”….right? The rest of it, I was simply creating myself.
I created the new “It is well with my soul” series because… Do you know what?? Life is MESSY. Life is this crazy journey that we all go on, and most of the time it’s HARD, layered with obstacles and stumbling blocks that we must overcome… challenges and new life lessons that we must learn.
I wanted to create a reminder, that life IS chaotic….but IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. We should all live life to simply enjoy the messiness and the twists and turns…for one day, those twists and turns will be a dead end. And we will leave our time on this earth. Do we want to spend that entire time searching for something that doesn’t exist? Well,…I don’t know about you…but I sure don’t.
I truly hope these paintings help those to see the beauty in the chaos. Doesn’t the mess of paint have a beautiful, almost whimsical look to it? Would you feel the same way about this piece (and pieces) if it wasn’t as authentic and real??? Well,…guess what… so should be the same view of your life.
Each of these paintings in this new art series symbolizes life…the depiction of chaos, disarray, confusion, turmoil….and yet they are beautiful, whimsical, special, mystical and captivating.
I am a known artist for perfect portraits, house portraits, animal portraits…so on… But for this week, and my new designs, my soul just longed for…something dirty. Something….REAL, AUTHENTIC and GENUINE. So I mixed a few of my favorite things… coffee..and PAINT! At the end of the day, I was completely covered in paint. My perfect manicure was hidden under layers of acrylic and coffee… but I’ve never felt so FREE.
I hope you love the new designs, I hope they inspire you, and find a place in your heart, and in your homes…and when you feel the chaos of life pressing down on you, take a few deep breaths…and whisper…”It is well with my soul.”
What a beautiful life you lead my friends!
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